Happy 'coz the course is set

Life has been wonderful in everything its brought to me, good and bad, valuable lessons learnt along the way. I'm forever grateful for its blessing. Parents who taught me much of what shaped me, a brother who's been a pillar, a doting husband who filled my life with so much love, companionship & happiness - You are my Rock and two handsome little boys who are the center of my universe - nothing compares your hearty laughs and pure, innocent, eager, endless chatter. I sincerely appreciate the family I married into, for being loving, understanding and working together to build the lovely relationships we have today. Life would be incomplete without a crazy mix of friends. I have always thanked my fortune for being surrounded by some very intelligent ones who in the times they stood by me, kept me sane. 

Life cannot and should not be easy. That would be dull. It is the challenges that life throws at us, which usually bring out the best (and the worst), introducing us to ourselves anew each time. Plodding, walking, madly chasing, I have come a long way. Amidst all this are those fleeting moments where I see the missing, a flicker of hope that I could still perhaps do it. This tiny speck is what I want to kindle here. 

I have been a daughter, a sister, a wife, a friend, a daughter-in-law, a sister-in-law & a mother. It's time now to also be me.This is amazingly gratifying. I am happy....like really happy! 

Moods

Sometimes associated with particular events, at other times just random emotions zig-zagging across my being, MOODS shares moments as felt by the heart. The endless number of feelings and their intertwined complexity has never stopped to amaze me. It is fairly easy to state 'how I feel' but we don't analyse often enough 'why I feel the way I feel', which is what would help us understand our own self and others. It is so important to do this. A lot of times, this may happen retrospectively because it is only human to go with the flow when in that mood. For me, it has often been a self-discovery, a lesson that perceptions change constantly, that a bit of mind needs to be present in any mood to prevent us from being carried away totally. 

Moods - the many halts in the humdrum of the daily life with some after-thoughts. There will be some that you may relate to and others which make you say 'what is she talking about?'. For me, they are like trying to find the end of the rainbow, which only moves farther as I walk towards it. I know there is no end, but I go on because I do love the colors that their spectrum adds to life.

Yellow Dreams

This is it. This is what I have dreamed of. This is what makes me happy. It's my escape into a world of my own creation, one that always makes me smile in the end. Where there's always sunshine, there's always blooming flowers, there's always beautiful butterflies. It stretches as far as my vision goes, it rises as far as my eyes meet the skies. It's open. It's wide. It's free. Open to my mind getting to play with all the thoughts I want to pen down. Wide enough to have scope for all the other things I want to carry on alongside. Free - in spirit and soul, no judging, no fears, no limits. I have started what I hope will become a journey that never ends. I do not know where it will take me. I am only glad I am not static anymore. Wandering through the sunshine, flowers, butterflies - yellow scattered all over. Yellow - beautiful, bright, bold - a desire beaming at me. A desire to flow, to be free, to be just me. This is a small step forward. 

And you're more than welcome to walk along - with me & my yellow dreams.